Spiritual Cinema

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Happy New Year! Film Critic Roger Ebert recently published his annual Top 10 Films of the Year – and decade. He included many of my favorites. I find myself drawn to spiritual films, primarily – they move me far more deeply than various genre films. So in that “spirit,” here are my Top 10 Spiritual Films, in no particular order:

  1. The Shawshank Redemption
  2. Groundhog Day
  3. Jesus of Montreal.
  4. Star Wars
  5. Spring, Summer, Fall, Winter…And Spring
  6. Wings of Desire
  7. Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon
  8. Forrest Gump
  9. Peaceful Warrior
  10. The Thin Red Line

Others that were close: The Matrix, Fearless, The Big Blue, Little Buddha, American Beauty, Pay it Forward, The Razor’s Edge, A River Runs Through It, The Curious Case of Benjamin Button, Happy Go Lucky and The Straight Story

Comments (0) Jan 01 2010

The Jesus Dude Abides

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So Christmas…I have fond childhood memories of padding down the stairs with my four siblings and being awestruck by the lights on the tree reflecting off our many gifts – our parents loved Christmas and were very generous. And actually I have five siblings, but Brian didn’t come along until I was 13, and by the time he was ready for Santa and reindeer and such, I was beyond all that…I like the literature Christmas has inspired, particularly Dickens’ A Christmas Carol. I don’t care for Dickens’ longer works, and as such I lump him in the same category as Stephen King. But wow, A Christmas Carol and King’s Rita Hayworth and The Shawshank Redemption are two of my favorite stories, ever, and have translated to the screen better than nearly all novels/novellas I can think of…But of course, the materialistic crap associated with the holiday is offensive to me and many others…On a related note, a few years ago, my brother Mike and I had a rebellion against the Thanksgiving tradition of overeating and watching TV all day, and since my wife was working and Mike was freshly divorced, we sailed from Seattle to Vancouver, B.C., spending the night before the holiday anchored at Sucia Island in the San Juans, and the following day happily freezing as we made the passage to Canada, accompanied by no boats but plenty of leaping porpoises. One of the most beautiful memories of my life was sailing the final couple of miles through Vancouver Harbor at dusk, with the cold Cascades in the distance and the city lights reflecting off the waves…But back to Christmas. This year Mike is sailing alone down the Mexican coast, and I think that’s a fine way to spend the holiday, and you go, Bro!…By the way, scientists suggest Jesus was born in the spring (based on the “star in the east,” likely a supernova), and the only reason we celebrate his birth this time of year is that the Christian tradition got mixed in with Celtic and other Pagan winter festivals associated with the winter solstice on Dec. 21st… I should note that I have much admiration for Jesus, who was clearly an enlightened being, but the extremes of deity worship and materialistic consumption render the whole holiday blasphemous, in my opinion, and I think he’d be offended as well…I can’t relate at all to the Infant Savior, but I like the flawed Jesus – the kid who probably cried a lot in that meager manger, was occasionally curt with his mom, disappeared in his teens, felt frustrated by his friends and misunderstood by old school elders; the young rebel, who disliked authority, enjoyed having his feet washed by a woman with fine hair, told his truth without spin, lost his temper in the temple, hung out with folks of questionable moral character, doubted himself (“Who do men say that I am?”) and, as another reverend once put it when discussing the parable of the fig tree, had his share of bad days…This is the “Hippie Jesus,” according to Lame Deer, and the guy that poet Carl Sandburg admired – he said he didn’t know the Jesus that preachers shouted about on Chicago street corners, just as I don’t recognize the man conservatives worship now…Jesus was The Dude, long before the Coen brothers resurrected him, but damn if those two Jewish guys from Minnesota (with considerable help from Jeff Bridges) didn’t get it right – The Jesus Dude Abides, even if we do celebrate his birthday nearly half a year off…So Merry Christmas, and a happy New Year.
 
 

 

Comments (0) Dec 24 2009

Merry Christmas

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Dear Family & Friends,

Greetings from Babyland! Our year has centered around young Sean Michael, naturally, and it’s been a rich experience.  We’re pleased that Jules has been able to stay home as a full-time Mom, because he surely is a full-time job.           

Just when we think we have our 13-month-old dynamo figured out, he pulls something new to keep us guessing. The other day, for instance, he was eating Cheerios off his tray, when he turned to me and said, “Pardon me, but do you have any Grey Poupon?”

He’s swimming every Saturday, and only pooped in the pool once. He has a long torso and short legs, just like Michael Phelps, and we’re thinking Sean “The Shark” Foley will represent the U.S. in the Butterfly in the 2028 Olympics. Not that we’re pressuring the kid. Sometimes we’ll feed him dinner even if he doesn’t swim his 50 laps.

Currently he’s working on walking and talking. He’s also a crawling maniac – he recently ascended the stairs for the first time – and can pull himself upright and walk around while using furniture for balance. He “reads” books, too, just in a language we can’t understand. Mandarin, maybe. Or perhaps Portuguese.

We’ve noticed that Sean Michael and his grandpa have quite a bit in common – nap time, activity hour, prunes, oatmeal…They were both bald for a time, but that Rogaine is really working wonders for Sean Michael – he’s even got curls.

Now we’re preparing for Christmas. Sean’s still too young to understand this holiday, of course, and Jules and I are debating about how to handle it in future years. She would like to fill his head with sugar plumb fairies and tales of Santa Claus bringing presents via the reindeer express; I’d prefer to tell him that Santa and the seven dwarfs – excuse me, the dozen elves — are nice stories, but Mom and Dad give him presents. Why set him up for later disappointment?

Jules calls me Scrooge. Bah bleeping humbug, I say. I’m a realist.

Wishing you all a wonderful 2010.

Love,

John & Jules

Comments (0) Dec 21 2009

Into the Mystic

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Some of my students are reading Night, Elie Wiesel’s somewhat depressing but important autobiographical novel. I’d forgotten that before his Holocaust experience, Wiesel was an intensely religious teen interested in Kabbalah, the mystic branch of Judaism. 

I’ve been interested in mysticism myself for many years. My understanding, though somewhat limited, is that mysticism involves unity with God, the Infinite, Nature — whatever term you might prefer. The mystical transformation – known as enlightenment or illumination, among other names, is sometimes brought about by intense suffering; sometimes by a sudden intuitive insight into the nature of reality; and sometimes by a gradual awakening. The transformation seems to be characterized by:

1)Seeing things as they are.

2)Surrendering to reality.

3)A shift in perception from the individual self to the universal self.

I’ve been interested in these concepts since I read Somerset  Maugham’s The Razor’s Edge in about 1983. Long before that, I had a couple of brushes with the mystic. The first came when I was about five or six. My family lived in Los Angeles, and I remember walking into the empty field next door one warm day. I sat down and looked up at the sun, then shut my eyes and felt a peace and purity and wonder that touched me very deeply. I’ve read that many children have such experiences, but forget about them, or trivialize them, as the mind hardens and the ego emerges. 

In high school – overall a terrible time for me – I’d practiced enough to master some basketball skills, and occasionally I’d enter that Zen-like state of “no mind.” In this peaceful place, when I was 14, I made 118 straight free throws one summer evening with my brother Chris feeding me the ball. And in a few games I went beyond the mere “zone” and seemed to become one with teammates, opponents, the basket and the ball; I remembered the light on the court would soften, the action slow, and I’d be completely happy.

I was not a good enough player to enter this state often, especially as I got older and the competition improved. And of course coaches wanted me to focus on teamwork, defense, plays, winning and other such nonsense – not realizing that I was using the game to access a semi-mystical state.

Where is Phil Jackson when you need him?

In college and through my twenties, I became interested in literature, especially mystic literature. Some works, both fiction and nonfiction, that have been important to me since The Razor’s Edge include: Siddhartha, by Herman Hesse; A River Run Through It, by Norman Maclean; Zen Mind, Beginner’s Mind, by Shunryh Suzuki; Walden, by Henry David Thoreau; Shibumi, by Trevanian; Mystics, Masters, Saints and Sages, by Robert Ullman and Judyth Reichenberg-Ullman; Wherever You Go, There You Are, by Jon Kabat-Zinn; The Power of Now, by Eckhart Tolle; Awareness, by Anthony de Mello; Esoteric Mind Power, by Vernon Howard; Freedom From the Known, by Jiddu Krishnamurti; The Thunder of Silence, by Joel Goldsmith; Loving What Is, by Byron Katie; and Silence of the Heart, by Robert Adams.

The religion found in churches has not interested me in many years. The best I can say is that I have sensed a certain peace in some of the grand cathedrals – St. Peter’s in Rome; Notre Dame in Paris; St. Patrick’s in New York. Perhaps all the people who have prayed in these places over the years have transformed architectural wonders into serene sanctuaries…In general, though, I agree with the late John D. MacDonald, who described organized religion as marching in formation to see a sunset. Mysticism just asks you to see the sunset.

Comments (0) Dec 19 2009

Thanksgiving

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The best spiritual practice I know of is gratitude, and it’s nice we have a day that celebrates all we have to be thankful for. “Count your blessings” is a cliché, of course, but when I actually do this – and I try to as a daily practice – my blessings invariably astonish me. And so I’m thankful for Miss Jules and Sean Michael, family and friends, work and play, freedom and responsibility, bookstores and art galleries, mountain trails and basketball courts, sailboats and kayaks, all the beautiful things I’ve seen, all the hardships that have made me stronger…and the simple joy of being alive. And may anyone who reads this be blessed with the gift of gratitude as well.

Comments (1) Nov 26 2009

The Scarlet Ibis

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The story that follows is a shorter version of one of my favorites. My freshmen read the unabridged story recently, and there were quite a few sniffles at the climax, when fragile young Doodle yells through the rain, “Brother, Brother, don’t leave me!” I must admit that gets me every time, too. The story implicitly poses the question, “Why do we hurt the ones we love?” There are some obvious answers: constant proximity leads to smothering, annoyance, the magnification of faults – and we lash out. Or we take revenge for some perceived injustice. Or, as Hurst suggests, there is a mysterious cruelty within us…I’m not sure there is a definitive answer to the question, but at least most of us – unlike the heartbroken narrator – get the chance to say, “I’m sorry.”    

 

 

The Scarlet Ibis

by James Hurst

Summer was dead, but autumn had not yet been born when the ibis came to the bleeding tree. It’s strange that all this is so clear to me, now that time has had its way. But sometimes (like right now) I sit in the cool green parlor, and I remember Doodle.

Doodle was about the craziest brother a boy ever had. Doodle was born when I was seven and was, from the start, a disappointment. He seemed all head, with a tiny body that was red and shriveled like an old man’s. Everybody thought he was going to die.

Daddy had the carpenter build a little coffin, and when he was three months old, Mama and Daddy named him William Armstrong. Such a name sounds good only on a tombstone.

When he crawled on the rug, he crawled backward, as if he were in reverse and couldn’t change gears. This made him look like a doodlebug, so I began calling him ‘Doodle.’ Renaming my brother was probably the kindest thing I ever did for him, because nobody expects much from someone called Doodle.

Daddy built him a cart and I had to pull him around. If I so much as picked up my hat, he’d start crying to go with me; and Mama would call from wherever she was, “Take Doodle with you.”

So I dragged him across the cotton field to share the beauty of Old Woman Swamp. I lifted him out and sat him down in the soft grass. He began to cry.

“What’s the matter?”

“It’s so pretty, Brother, so pretty.”

After that, Doodle and I often went down to Old Woman Swamp.

There is inside me (and with sadness I have seen it in others) a knot of cruelty borne by the stream of love. And at times I was mean to Doodle. One time I showed him his casket, telling him how we all believed he would die. When I made him touch the casket, he screamed. And even when we were outside in the bright sunshine he clung to me, crying, “Don’t leave me, Brother! Don’t leave me!”

Doodle was five years old when I turned 13. I was embarrassed at having a brother of that age who couldn’t walk, so I set out to teach him. We were down in Old Woman Swamp. “I’m going to teach you to walk, Doodle,” I said.

“Why?”

“So I won’t have to haul you around all the time.”

“I can’t walk, Brother.”

“Who says so?”

“Mama, the doctor–everybody.”

“Oh, you can walk.” I took him by the arms and stood him up. He collapsed on to the grass like a half-empty flour sack. It was as if his little legs had no bones.

“Don’t hurt me, Brother.”

“Shut up. I’m not going to hurt you. I’m going to teach you to walk.” I heaved him up again, and he collapsed.

“I just can’t do it.”

“Oh, yes, you can, Doodle. All you got to do is try. Now come on,” and I hauled him up once more.

It seemed so hopeless that it’s a miracle I didn’t give up. But all of us must have something to be proud of, and Doodle had become my something.

Finally one day he stood alone for a few seconds. When he fell, I grabbed him in my arms and hugged him, our laughter ringing through the swamp like a bell. Now we knew it could be done.

We decided not to tell anyone until he was actually walking. At breakfast on our chosen day I brought Doodle to the door in the cart. I helped Doodle up; and when he was standing alone, I let them look. There wasn’t a sound as Doodle walked slowly across the room and sat down at the table. Then Mama began to cry and ran over to him, hugging him and kissing him. Daddy hugged him, too. Doodle told them it was I who had taught him to walk, so they wanted to hug me, and I began to cry.

“What are you crying for?” asked Daddy, but I couldn’t answer. They didn’t know that I did it just for myself, that Doodle walked only because I was ashamed of having a crippled brother.

Within a few months, Doodle had learned to walk well. Since I had succeeded in teaching Doodle to walk, I began to believe in my own infallibility. I decided to teach him to run, to row, to swim, to climb trees, and to fight. Now he, too, believed in me; so, we set a deadline when Doodle could start school.

But Doodle couldn’t keep up with the plan. Once, he collapsed on the ground and began to cry.

“Aw, come on, Doodle. You can do it. Do you want to be different from everybody else when you start school?”

“Does that make any difference?”

“It certainly does. Now, come on.”

And so we came to those days when summer was dead but autumn had not yet been born. It was Saturday noon, just a few days before the start of school. Daddy, Mama, Doodle, and I were seated at the dining room table, having lunch. Suddenly from out in the yard came a strange croaking noise. Doodle stopped eating. “What’s that?” He slipped out into the yard, and looked up into the bleeding tree. “It’s a big red bird!”

Mama and Daddy came out. On the topmost branch perched a bird the size of a chicken, with scarlet feathers and long legs.

At that moment, the bird began to flutter. It tumbled down through the bleeding tree and landed at our feet with a thud. Its graceful neck jerked twice and then straightened out, and the bird was still. It lay on the earth like a broken vase of red flowers, and even death could not mar its beauty.

“What is it?” Doodle asked.

“It’s a scarlet ibis,” Daddy said.

Sadly, we all looked at the bird. How many miles had it traveled to die like this, in our yard, beneath the bleeding tree?

Doodle knelt beside the ibis. “I’m going to bury him.”

As soon as I had finished eating, Doodle and I hurried off to Horsehead Landing. It was time for a swimming lesson, but Doodle said he was too tired. When we reached Horsehead landing, lightning was flashing across half the sky, and thunder was drowning out the sound of the sea.

Doodle was both tired and frightened. He slipped on the mud and fell. I helped him up, and he smiled at me ashamedly. He had failed and we both knew it. He would never be like the other boys at school.

We started home, trying to beat the storm. The lightning was near now. The faster I walked, the faster he walked, so I began to run.

The rain came, roaring through the pines. And then, like a bursting Roman candle, a gum tree ahead of us was shattered by a bolt of lightning. When the deafening thunder had died, I heard Doodle cry out, “Brother, Brother, don’t leave me! Don’t leave me!”

The knowledge that our plans had come to nothing was bitter, and that streak of cruelty within me awakened. I ran as fast as I could, leaving him far behind with a wall of rain dividing us. Soon I could hear his voice no more.

I stopped and waited for Doodle. The sound of rain was everywhere, but the wind had died and it fell straight down like ropes hanging from the sky.

I peered through the downpour, but no one came. Finally I went back and found him huddled beneath a red nightshade bush beside the road. He was sitting on the ground, his face buried in his arms, which were resting on drawn-up knees. “Let’s go, Doodle.”

He didn’t answer so I gently lifted his head. He toppled backward onto the earth. He had been bleeding from the mouth, and his neck and the front of his shirt were stained a brilliant red.

“Doodle, Doodle.” There was no answer but the ropy rain. I began to weep, and the tear-blurred vision in red before me looked very familiar. “Doodle!” I screamed above the pounding storm and threw my body to the earth above his. For a long time, it seemed forever, I lay there sheltering my fallen scarlet ibis from the heresy of rain.

Comments (0) Nov 21 2009

Otherness

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The best novel I’ve read recently is David Guterson’s The Other. I enjoyed two other novels by Guterson, Our Lady of the Forest and Snow Falling on Cedars – and the latter is one of my all-time favorites. While The Other isn’t quite up to the Himalayan standard Guterson set with Cedars, it is nevertheless a powerful work, and I’ve never related so strongly to fictional characters. John William Barry and Neil Countryman, friends in the novel, felt like friends to me as well. In his early twenties, John William concludes that being well-adjusted to a sick society is no sign of health, and he heads for the hills, quite literally. His idealistic extremism reminded me of Christopher McCandless, the young man who starved to death in the Alaska wilderness. McCandless’ story was told movingly in John Krakauer’s book Into the Wild, as well as the Sean Penn film of the same title. Most Alaskans felt nothing but disdain for McCandless, but I saw too much of myself in him – rejecting societal values, searching for purity, heading into the wilderness ill-prepared…Like that young man, I did not realize how unforgiving the Alaska wilderness can be, and I made some mistakes that could have easily killed me. I was lucky and he was not…As for John William Barry, he lives in a small trailer near Washington’s Olympic Mountains, but constructs a cave in the woods when that seems too extravagant. Neil makes the long trek periodically to bring his friend food and other supplies he does not really want, although he accepts them, and their time together is a meditation on friendship and loyalty…Did I mention that John William is heir to a family estate worth hundreds of millions of dollars? And that he wills the money to Neil? That aspect of the plot felt a bit heavy-handed, I must admit, although Guterson was likely drawing on his own experience striking it rich after the success of Cedars…Neil Countryman narrates the novel, and other than the minor detail of the $440 million he inherits, I’ve never identified so completely with a character. Like Countryman, I’ve taken a solitary trek through Europe, taught high school English, hiked extensively in the Cascades, struggled to succeed as a writer – and fallen short of my ideals. “I’m a hypocrite, of course,” he says near the end of the novel. “I live with that, but I live.”

Comments (0) Nov 14 2009

Birthday Boy

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Today is my son’s first birthday. Sean Michael’s crawling well enough to scare the cats, pounding bottles — he’s up to 26 pounds, despite being a month premature — and seems to be a very happy kid. I’m hoping he’ll always be happy, despite the suffering that’s inevitable in life…Wish I could deposit a pile of happiness in his account that he could draw on later –now THAT would be a birthday present…

Comments (0) Nov 10 2009

Irish Logic

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This story about an Irish Sunday School teacher made me laugh out loud. A colleague who has taught in Ireland told a similar story about a toddler whose first sentence, after being jostled in a minor traffic accident while on the way to church, was: “For fook’s sake!” Wonder where he picked up that phrase?…I must note that I find the Irish lilt so much more lyrical and lovely than the flat American English I hear most of the time, and “fook” never strikes me as offensive — and is actually rather charming with the aforementioned lilt — while “fuck” seems harsh and ugly by comparison…Anyway, here’s the story:

I was testing children in my Dublin Sunday school class to see if they understood the concept of getting to heaven.

I asked them, “If I sold my house and my car, had a big garage sale and gave all my money to the church, would that get me into heaven?”

“‘NO!” the children answered.

“If I cleaned the church every day, mowed the garden, and kept everything tidy, would that get me into heaven?”

Again, the answer was “NO!” By now I was starting to smile.

“Well, then, if I was kind to animals and gave sweets to all the children, and loved my husband, would that get me into heaven?”

Again, they all answered “NO!”

I was just bursting with pride for them.

I continued, ”Then how can I get into heaven?”

A six year-old boy shouted out: 

“YUV GOTTA BE FOOKN’ DEAD!”

Comments (0) Nov 05 2009

Tee Them Up

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I’m planning to officiate basketball this winter, and recently completed some training. I refereed years ago in Alaska, sort of winging it, and it was good to finally learn the formalities so I don’t have to say things such as, “Foul on the dude with the pony tail, two shots.”

The dedicated professionals who ran the training camp taught us all the calls, and I couldn’t help but reflect that the world would be a better place if basketball referees controlled the game. Here are a few “players” who should be whistled for violations:

Jon and Kate: Three seconds. Camping out in the public lane. Move along, and take your eight teammates with you. 

Sarah Palin: Exiting the court with time on the clock. A former point guard and current hockey mom should know she can’t leave the game early, don’t ya think?

Bret Favre: Over and back. Once you cross the line into retirement, there’s no coming back, even if the Vikings don’t suck this year.

Kanye West: Technical foul. Entering the game from the bench area without permission. Our make-up call will be a Swift kick to the cojones.

Rush Limbaugh: You’ve taken cheap shots at blacks, women, gays, liberals and little kids on a bus. That’s five and you are outta the game!

David Letterman and his blackmailer: Double foul! Flagrant foul! In flagrante delicto foul! Foul, foul, foul!

President Obama: Charging. The $700 billion you spent to bail out Wall Street and $3.6 trillion you budgeted for the next fiscal year are clearly offensive, and while you’ve made some good moves, Mr. President, we’re going the other way.

Colorado Balloon Guy: Goaltending. Interfering with the downward flight. And the upward flight. And tending goals with your kid. Count the basket and take a flying leap to the Big House.

Brad Pitt and Angelina Jolie: Travelling. You moved your pivot foot in seven countries in six weeks. Not much of a violation, but we don’t coddle superstars.

Comments (0) Oct 23 2009